Tonight I can sleep a little better.
Something has happened that has made all the difference.
There’s a smile that wasn't there before. Breathing seems
easier. A tremendous weight has been lifted. I feel like life has been extended
towards me and Heaven’s company rejoices with me.
The challenge was given and for a long time, I resisted.
I
allowed so many questions to bombard my mind and for a while my heart doubted
and reasoned within me when all I had to do was lean on God’s goodness and
follow after His leading.
But it’s done. I obeyed.
The response didn't come
immediately and so I waited.
These are the words that continued to ring in my heart and mind:
This is what the Lord has begun.There are people in our lives that we've had great
misunderstandings with. Momentary confusion has led to break ups and let downs.
Confusion of messages wrongly delivered or never delivered has created such
deep separation between friends. Hurts have birthed resentment.
The
uncertainties of the cutting away have planted deep roots of bitterness and the
growth has been tremendous wounds. Time has passed and our years of desiring
God’s presence have at times been times of searching for something greater, but
these wounds and these painful moments have been buried away in the back of our
memories and we've not dealt with them. We've prayed for revival, healing,
deliverance, and always there has been something in the way. 
And we hear God saying, “ Repair, Mend, Fix, Forgive…” And
we respond, “Later.” Still wanting Him to meet our needs immediately.
This is
what the Lord is doing in my life. He is shining the Flashlight deep into the
forgotten places in my heart, where the hurts hide, where the lack of forgiveness for
stupid reasons have been filed away and where resentment for so many things has
built walls so high.
God is in the business of changing lives. He is also in
the way of showing us that we need to be restorers of things broken in our
lives.
He has freely pardoned all our wrong doings. We should be
even quicker to forgive and let go.
God has given me this gift by shattering my pride and my
fears so that I can reach out and say, “Forgive me. I’m sorry.” Or, “You hurt
me, but I still want and need you in my life. Can we start over?” This gift has
come through answered prayer as the Lord is restoring people in my life that I
thought were long gone and I’d never be able to hear their voice again. He is a
God of mercy.
Restoration has begun tonight and for that I am grateful and
blessed. Do you need to start on your journey of restoration, forgiveness and healing, just like I did? It's never late to start over. Today is the day to just do what you have to do.
Lord, thank you for helping us on this journey towards being whole in our relationships and in our hearts. Amen.
